Today is Sunday and presently it is eight minutes past seven o’clock. I was feel lazy so I didn’t write my beauty sleep journal entry this morning when I woke up.
I do know that last night didn’t go all that well for me with the sleep and my intention to get at least 8 hours of it per night and my intention to train myself out of my side sleeping and stomach sleeping habits and into a new habit of sleeping on my back. I can’t remember what time I went to bed last night, but I suspect it was after midnight again. And I woke up somewhere around five o’clock six o’clock in the morning.
Beauty sleep journal entry continued Monday September 25th 2017 10:58AM…
Yesterday was one of those days. You know how sometimes you just don’t feel like writing in your journal/diary. That was me yesterday, and to be completely honest, still me today. But I figured I’d try to finish up yesterday’s beauty sleep journal entry and try to write today’s afterward. Like I was starting to write yesterday, I did not sleep well on Saturday night. I do think that my bedroom is a huge part of the problem that I am having with sleeping. That plus my mind being very active with thoughts about a variety of stressful things going on in my life. I have not been practicing what I preach as far as setting a sleep schedule and sticking to it. I have been working at night and by the time I finish my work it’s almost midnight. So that’s something I’ll have to nip in the bud for starters. Then my bedroom environment is just not conducive to getting a good night’s rest. I’ve recently moved and the house that I am renting is pretty old. Although people lived in it before I moved in, supposedly for five years, it has a smell throughout the place and especially in my bedroom. The smell penetrates my sleep and wakes me up. Sometimes it’s so unpleasant I have to get up and go out to sleep on the couch, but the living room sometimes has the smell. Not as strong as the bedroom but it is present. And the bedroom is so much smaller than my previous bedroom that it is pretty cramped and just not a pleasant environment to be in while awake or asleep. And so I think my intention to start harnessing the power of sleep is being thwarted by my choices in the times that I have been going to sleep and also by my having to sleep in a bedroom that has an odor which affects my ability to sleep and that is also not physically laid out in a way that promotes relaxation.
Since today is Monday, I can’t really recall much about Saturday’s beauty sleep attempt other than that it just didn’t happen. I didn’t get the 8 hours I needed. But I think I looked and felt reasonably okay on Sunday. I didn’t wake up with my under eye bags and nasolabial folds gone or anything, but they weren’t overly prominent. And the evidence shows in the photos and videos I took yesterday. I had a lot of up close shots taken and the pictures won’t need to be edited too dramatically. So I’m happy about that because it means something is working. And I do think it’s the combination of the collagen that I consume and collagen mist and vitamin c hyaluronic acid mist that I use topically, plus my back sleeping attempts. I definitely got more sleep on my back on Saturday night than I did last night (Sunday night). And there is a difference. I will write about it in the entry for Sunday’s beauty sleep journal, but I will say that my bags were noticeably bigger this morning and I slept for almost 9 hours Sunday night but I did not get much of those 9 hours of sleep on my back.
So if it seems like I’m saying there’s something to sleeping on your back and waking up looking better than when you sleep on your sides or stomach, I’m leaning in that direction of thought based on my experiences with back sleeping so far. I haven’t looked at my face and felt aghast in several mornings, but I did just now look at my face and thought “yikes, this is the worst I have looked in a while’. So I have popped my Foreo Luna into my freezer and I will have to do some work on these enormous bags under my eyes today. I have not had to do that in a while. So, 9 hours of sleep is great and all, but if you have bags under your eyes and you sleep for 9 hours on your sides or your stomach smashing your face on your pillow, that’s 9 hours spent undoing all the work you are otherwise doing trying to fight your under eye bags, and your nasolabial folds too.
I have always had bags under my eyes, even as a little girl. It has always been something that people noticed and would talk about. I don’t think that I will ever not have bags under my eyes, unless I get them removed via cosmetic surgery. But I do think that the bags look extra prominent due to the sleeping problems I’ve had for over a decade now. And I do believe that it’s not too late to harness the power of sleep and use it to fix the damage that lack of sleep has caused to my appearance. If you are feeling depressed about your looks, I am here to tell you, there are things you can do to improve your looks. I know it because I have had occasions where I’ve looked at my face and felt completely depressed, and I thought there was nothing I could do to fix things. Nowadays people want me to tell them what I’m doing so they can do it. They want to know what products I’m using, what I’m eating. It makes me feel pretty good because I have been working very hard to try to repair all the damage I’ve done to myself over the years not caring how I looked, being severely depressed and treating myself horribly because of things going on in my life. My skin had been in pretty bad shape, but it has been significantly improved since I started trying to get my life back and find myself again.
I wish you the best in your efforts to improve your life. Focus on that as your goal and everything will become possible.
M